Wow Michelle..I can absolutely relate to using booze as a means to cope with a relationship. I was in a long term “partnership” with a narcissistic man and I used alcohol as a means to remain in denial. That obviously didn’t end well and I am man and alcohol free at the moment and starting over. It is not easy but at least I have a shot at connecting with my higher self. I meant to say that the people in my life prefer me it when I am sober. I really admire you that you were able to identify that feeling of nagging cravings and chose self care. Kudos!!!! x